You say I'm a dreamer but I'm not the only one.

so i think i got my costume for tomorrow.

/lulz4dayz

just because you’re a cheerleader doesn’t mean you’re so popular that you need to whip your phone out every 2 seconds during class. do you think you’re so badass for doing that? lol..

if it’s important or family stuff, ms bradley will understand… if not, i’m pretty sure your conversation with the other cheerleaders about this week’s cutest dress or something. i’m pretty sure all the stores will have it in stick-skinny-cheerleader size. -_____-

im done. i’ve realized that some people are starting to take advantage and use me because i’m trying to be nice and help them. i’m not going to tolerate anyone’s bullshit anymore. i don’t want people hanging around me if they just want me to do a favor for them. if i’m mad, please know put yourself in my shoes and hopefully you’ll know that i’m not in the mood to deal with your snide comments. i think you should change up your attitude a bit because everytime i see you at school, you can’t help but make such remarks about me. and you wonder why i’m mad or ignore you sometimes.

i can’t be happy all the time, it’s too hard. i hope people understand, i’m still nice, but there is a limit. i think it’s time that i started thinking a little more of myself instead of worrying about others all the time.

it annoys me when people feel the need to add unecessary words/names as their middle name like teddy bear,i-like-to-eat-curly-fries, cute fluffy bunny or some long ass shit like that. are you trying to sound cute? we’re not in the 6th grade anymore, please stop that.

lately i’ve been lagging when it comes to replying to people’s texts, calls, fb messages and stuff, so if take a long time or i don’t even reply at all, i’m super sorry. haha there are some times when i feel like socializing and having fun but mostly i’ve gotten a bit more quiet. i guess there’s just been a lot to think about.

I SWEAR TO GOD THIS COMPUTER NEEDS TO FUCKING UGHHHHH DAMN YOU, YOU PIECE OF SHIT.

well i finally ordered my illest lanyard ^__^

the only good thing that happened today.

well, besides eating lucky charms and the fact that i ate breakfast and changed in like 30 seconds, which includes running up the stairs too.

heh

and now that shit won’t open and its really bothering me. it hasnt been opening for a couple of days. my computer is messed up so im thinking that has something to do with it. maybe it doesnt have enough memory? idk shit’s pissing me off.

my mind is so jumbled up right now. i can’t stop worrying about everything. the quarter ends this week and my grades are not good. im stressing over the chem and english benchmark and i also need to work harder for cross country because the season ends in less than 2 weeks.

on top of that, i’m being dumb and worrying about a boy! i wish i just knew whether you were interested or not. i’m really making an effort to talk to you but you are so reserved and dont seem like you want to talk to me. you always smile or look over and make eye contact, but when i saw hi, you seem bothered by me. or maybe that i like you so much that it’s getting to my head and you arent looking at me, instead you’re looking at one of the other girls in our class?

i wish i had the ability to block everything out and focus on just schoolwork for now. but i’m not strong enough, you are too cute. OMG CAN I JUST NOT THINK OF YOU FOR LIKE A DAY?! its so cliche, but you really are driving me crazy, both in a good and bad way.

dont be surprised if i walk up to you one day and just ask if you like me or not because i’m not smart enough to figure it out myself.

it’s always that lady who lives in the condo across from me. she sounds like a witch, dont ask why, she just yells in mandarin and yeah. lol i wish i knew what they were saying because all i hear it “SHEEBUHSHEECHEERESHETEFKJS”whatever the fuck mandarin sounds like. am i the only person that thinks mandarin sounds so ugly and more obnoxious than cantonese? LOL

unicorns.

supposedly today is hug-an-asian-day because someone was stupid enough to even make it an event on fb.

this morning when i was walking to first period, i see a girl wearing a sign around her neck that said “hug an asian day.” “free hugs for asians” or something like that.

the whole time i was like wtf is this even real?

then all i hear is someone go “FRESHMANNNN”

lol wut

this stuff is very straighforward, you just sign up, enter your info, and you’re done. it’s common sense, i told you to look for d10south not d10fuckingNORTH or d38 or whatever the fuck. it shouldn’t have taken you 30 minutes to search for the name, just look alphabetically. i even told you what to look under. i explained the process during lunch yesterday, today, and you even heard it at the key club meeting. and i had to repeat it 10 minutes ago, again. it’s fine if you ask me for help, but if you arent going to pay attention, i’m just going to bitch at you because i had to repeat it so many times.

maybe it’s because i’m easily annoyed at the moment, but still. if you’re going to ask me something, at least make an effort to listen because i don’t have time to repeat it 3 more times. unless it’s something more complicated, then i wouldn’t mind repeating the process a few extra times.

while everyone is super excited about how its 10:10 10/10/2010…..

im busting my ass, trying to finish my vocab, oral report, algebra 2, chemistry, and spanish homework.

coolest day ever? more like one of the shittiest days i’ve had this school year.

drinking this orangeade has offically been the highlight of my week.

are you forreal. you barely do anything around the house, boss me around every fucking day and all you do is criticize me, there are people suffering way more than you right now, and you wont even help out. you know what, i wasn’t even asking you to donate anything, i was just talking to mom about how i would raise money and all of a sudden you just fucking interrupt telling me how hard you work for your money and how i all talk about is donating to help this and that.

are you serious?! can you fucking listen to what i’m saying just once? i’m not asking anyone to donate fucking $50 or anything, a dollar or two will suffice. i dont even know what’s worse, the fact that you are so cold hearted you wouldnt even help those that are suffering more than you or the fact that i’ve been doing this for years, supporting breast cancer and hiv/aids for years and you still dont approve. you talk about being successful in life, but you never really cared if i was happy or not, you only cared about the money. i want to be successful, but i also want to be happy. helping others makes me happy because it tells me that somewhere, im making a difference in someone else’s life, that i’m helping them. and maybe one day, someone will reach out and help me too. but if you can’t see that i like to help such causes, it shows that you don’t really care about my interests and what i do, you just care about what’s best for you.

one day, when you’re in the need of someone’s help, you’re going to face the fact that there may not be anyone to help you because you didn’t bother reaching out and helping others when they needed it. i never thought you were so selfish, but hey, we learn something new everyday. 

until i checked my grades online.

i went down 4% because i failed two quickwrites so now i have a 64% in my english honors class.

now expecting my warning notice to come in the mail or wherever the fuck it comes from.

 so i’m trying to study for my grammar test and i put my book on the table so it’ll stand by itself. then i see a 20 dollar bill sliding out from the front page and i’m just like ….what the hell? i turn to the page and find another 5 bucks so in my head i’m just like FUCK YES I FOUND MONEY IN MY BOOK. JACKPOTTTTT. then in my head, i started thanking whoever put it there.

2 seconds later, i realize that this was the same exact grammar book i kept at home for the past two weeks and last week i stuck the $25 under the cover because i was too lazy to put it away. damn i feel so stupid now.

at least i didnt bring my book to school and end up losing my money.

bridgettbaaby:

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

but i hate when people just freeload off me. and i mean freeload. if you’re my close friend/family or if you ask, then i dont really care. there are some people who i don’t mind sharing with at all. but the people who act like my food is automatically theirs need to gtfo.

i mean i’m not saying that i dont take food from people, but i know when to stop. at school, i have free lunch and i need the energy for practice so i go get it, even if school food tastes like shit sometimes. when i’m eating, don’t fucking just take my spork and start shoving my food into your mouth without asking me. could you please get your own spork?  or maybe you can wait after i’m done and you can eat the rest, because i find sharing eating utensils disgusting sometimes. its the same as kissing you, indirectly, if you really think about it. or, this is what really gets to me, when certain people open their mouths and go “AHHH”. UH NO I’M NOT YOUR LOVER OR YOUR FUCKING MOTHER YOU HAVE HANDS OF YOUR OWN FEED YOURSELF GADDAMIT. and this has actually happened to me a lot of times and it makes me want to punch a wall or something. sorry i won’t even do that for my bestfriend cuz that’s just plain awkward, unless we’re just being stupid and playing around. unless you’re handicapped or some shit, i’m not fucking hand feeding your lazy ass.

really, i don’t mind sharing food, but if you’re going to ask me consistently or act as if i’m your personal walking 7-eleven, i’m just not even going to talk to you because it just seems like i’m only your friend for food.

it’s only been 6 weeks, yet it feels like forever. endless hours of work and practice contribute to my irregular sleeping pattern. but on a brighter note, it’s already october. which means

• cooler weather
• holidays are coming up= no school
• my birthday heheehehhehehhehehe
• dad’s birthday
• hallo-fucking-ween!
• and everyone else’s birthday. apparently almost everyone’s parents were getting busy on Valentine’s day.

that’s pretty much it. i’m just excited for the colder weather.

“omg guyz i jus passed the written part of my drivers ed. i can’t wait to drive to the mall, blasting music and chilling wit mah friends. yeeeeeee”

i hear people saying this, or something close to this. i’m sorry but i think this is just plain stupid. first off, when you first get your permit, you can’t have people with you in your car unless they’re 18+ (last time i checked.) second, where are you going to drive besides the mall, movies or school?

maybe it’s how i was raised, but i don’t really see the point in getting a permit at this age. i’d rather just wait until i’m 17. mainly, i think people are just saying this so they can post it on facebook or go around bragging about how they can drive. do you not know how much money you can save by walking your ass to fucking yogurtland or wherever the fuck you wanna go instead of driving there? at this age, driving isn’t a necessity, go get your lazy ass up and walk to fucking 7 eleven or arrange a carpool to go the mall. geez.